Marisa Giovani

Free Writing

Aerobic, A Secret Diary, and Something Unpleasant under the Bed

One day, I went to an aerobic class. After I finished the class, I went back home. When I was at home, I saw a book. The book was so interesting. I took and read it. For a few minutes, I realized that it was a secret diary. That was my uncle’ s diary who had passed away for a long time. After I finished reading the diary, I moved to my bedroom. I felt something wrong in my room. Then, I checked the things there one by one to make it clear, but there was nothing. However, I still tried to check under my bed then I got something unpleasant there. I found a bloody letter. That was my uncle’s bloody letter. Then, I opened the letter. “Stop reading my diary or I will kill you!”, my uncle said in his letter.

Memoir

The Fatal Mistake

Five years ago, I had a man that I really loved. I felt love drunk with him. Someday, we decided to meet each other. The weather was too nice in the tie we met. We met because we wanted to discuss about some subject. I didn’t listen to him well when he started talk to me. He felt offended because I didn’t pay attention to him. He was so mad and shouted at me. I shouted him back because I was so shocked. Then he chocked me. There was no air in my lungs for a while. I tried to release his hands on my neck. It was a bad day for me. I felt so scared to see him. He was like a Lucifer. I left him. I ran away from him. I was so shocked because of his act. I ran away while crying thought he was shocked too. He just let me go at that time. Someday, he came to my house but I closed the door for him. He texted me “Fanny, sorry for chocking you. I felt so bad” he said. I didn’t reply this text. Then he walked away from my house.
I blocked him in every social media but he still tried to communicate with me. I didn’t care about it. Then, I decided to leave my hometown because I didn’t want to see him anymore. The night before I went off, he left a rose and a letter, I knew because they were in front of my house door. I read the letter, then, I burned it along with the rose. I hated him about five years. It was not easy as people saw when I should go through this way alone without any support from anyone. Honestly, I didn’t tell my family about this problem because I was too scared that my family would seek and kill him. I still couldn’t imagine that I could stand alone without any support.
Someday I met someone who told me, “You should apologize what happened in your past. You shouldn’t hate someone who had made you feel trauma but you should let the pain go. Because of that, you will heal, find peace and win this pain”. Then I apologized him. It made me got heal and found my peace. Even though I felt it was not fair for him, I thought I should let my life go peacefully. I was not totally healed from this pain because there was still pieces of trauma which still haunted me until now. If I had a chance to yell from a mountain top to anyone who has got trauma by dating abuse, here’s what I would say: There is always a door where you can use to go out of this pain, come and see how brave you are! Be brave to apologize your past even though it will give you a bad memory but it also has a precious lesson for you to choose what is good for yourself.

Short Story

Rebecca

Once upon a time, there were a mother with her daughter, Rebecca. Rebecca was an innocent girl. She was 15 years old. They lived in countryside which was a landfills. They lived so poorly. Rebecca mommy was not a good mommy for her. She always forced her to earn money. She eventually it her if Rebecca couldn’t earn money. Rebecca was never mad at her mommy because she was the only one that she had in the world. Rebecca’s childhood wasn’t like other kids who spent their childhood playing toys or sharing laugh with others. Rebecca earned money by picking up trash. Actually, it wasn’t enough for her and her mom. Rebecca’s mom didn’t go to work because she thought Rebecca was strong enough to earn money by picking up trash.
One day, Rebecca didn’t go work because she was sick but her mom forced her to go. “Why don’t you go work?” she asked. “I don’t feel very well, mom” Rebecca replied, but her mom hit her out of home and forced her to go work. “I don’t care if you are sick. I just need money” she shouted. Rebecca went away while crying. She felt so sad because her mom didn’t care about her health. Rebecca’s mom just need her money. After she left home, her uncle came to their home. Her uncle knew if Rebecca was an innocent girl. She was never in relationship. Her uncle also knew that they were so poor. That’s why he came to give a solution. “I have a job for Rebecca but she should go to city” he said. Rebecca’s mommy was so happy because her daughter got a job in city and it was too difficult to get a job there. “How much money she can get?” she asked. Her uncle explained that she would get a lot of money if she went there. Then, Rebecca’s mom went and asked her to come home as soon as possible. Her mommy explained the job for her even though she didn’t exactly know what the kind of job it was. She was just happy because her daughter would get a lot of money.
Three days later, her uncle came to their home to pick Rebecca. Rebecca and her uncle went to the city. Rebecca was so happy because she never saw a new thing before, but she was still sad because she left her mom alone. Then, they arrived at a home where Rebecca would work there. She was so shocked. In other side, she was also surprised because she never saw girls or women sexy clothes. She asked her uncle why they were here but her uncle didn’t respond her. After her uncle gave Rebecca to his boss, her uncle left Rebecca with some money because he successfully sold Rebecca to his boss. Rebecca was forced to wear sexy clothes. If she didn’t want to wear it, she would get an electric hit from the assistance. Rebecca also should put on make up to make her more beautiful. After that, they forced her to sit in front of the sits line. Rebecca looked like an angel. At the same time, a man came and asked her to have a crazy night with her, but she didn’t want it because she felt so scared.
Another woman forced her and they locked them in a bedroom. The man forced her to put off her clothes but she rejected it. Then, the man hit her. Rebecca cried but the man didn’t care at all. Then, he forced Rebecca to do the crazier thing. After it all, Rebecca cried so loud. She disappointed because it was her uncle’s plan for her. In other side, she also cried because she lost her virginity. When she cried, she took a knife near from the washbasin. Her heart was full of hate. She ran out of her mind. She walked close to him and she killed him.
She left the dead body in bathroom and she locked the bedroom. Two days later, someone who cleaned up the room was so shocked because he found a dead body. They didn’t not report it to the police because they thought it wasn’t their fault. Rebecca cried every day after that shit happened to her. Even though, she was a teenager, they still didn’t care about it. One time, Rebecca tried to run away from that place but she failed. The bodyguard took her back to the place. They gave an electric shock as her punishment. She made a promise that she wouldn’t run away anymore. Then, they left her alone. She went back to her room and make sure that she was alright. She took a slept for a while.
A week later, a man came to her to have a good sleep night with her. She didn’t reject but accepted it. They had a good sleep night but she thought what had happened to her. She cried when the man slept. She didn’t kill the man but she tried to run away again. Whatever she would get, she would accept it, but the bodyguard saw her. They ran to get her back. They hit her until her body was full of blood. They took her back home and gave her an electric shock again. She couldn’t do anything. She just gave up and cried. She felt so depressed. She didn’t eat after all. She thought that she was unworthy to live again. She felt nobody loved her except herself.
These pain make her decided to commit suicide. Because of these reason, she decided to commit suicide. She took the rope and locked the door. Before she committed suicide, she thought about her mom’s feeling if she died. However, she thought her mom wouldn’t get sad if she died. Then, she took a chair, tied the rope up and she hung herself. There’s no one who knew about it until the boss was aware if she lost her girl. The boss told her bodyguard to look for Rebecca. One of the bodyguards, Tommy, saw Rebecca already hung. He was so shocked. He couldn’t say anything. He just looked the dead body and felt guilt. After five minutes, he screamed for help. They came and brought Rebecca down. Their boss called her uncle and said “come and take away your nephew. She is dead”. Rebecca’s uncle shocked when he hear that. He ran and went to Rebecca’s home and tell her mom. Rebecca’s mom couldn’t do anything after knowing this news. She just cried and cried. Rebecca’s uncle went to city and took her back.
When Rebecca’s dead body was already at home, her mom just cried while seeing her daughter in a cold body, pale lips, and traces of the neck strap. She realized that she was failed to be good mommy for Rebecca. She was so disappointed because she couldn’t make her daughter happy as long she lived. It was no use crying over spilt milk. After Rebecca’s burial, her mom asked her uncle why Rebecca could commit suicide, what she did when she was in city, but her uncle couldn’t say anything. He was speechless. Rebecca’s mom asked him almost until 1000 times but he couldn’t say anything. Rebecca’s mom went and tried to know what Rebecca job was in city. A week had passed and she found Rebecca workplace. Even though she wasn’t a good mommy for Rebecca, she was shocked when she knew her daughter’s workplace. She went inside and asked “Does my daughter, Rebecca, work here?”. Rebecca’s boss asked her back “Who are you? Why you asks my girl?”. “ I’m Rebecca’s mommy” she replied. Because she said that she was Rebecca’s mommy, he told her that she suicide because she didn’t feel comfortable with this job. That’s why she decided to suicide.
Rebecca’s mom went away from her daughter workplace. She walked wit.h blue feeling She just thought about her daughter’s pain of this bad job. She came to her brother’s home, Rebecca’s uncle. “I’m so disappointed because you sell my daughter for that bad job, you make my daughter died. You are the kid of Lucifer. You are not human” Rebecca’s mom shouted. Her brother couldn’t say anything after that tragedy. He knelt down and asked her apologize but Rebecca’s mommy kicked him back. She slapped him as hard as she could. She felt so tired of this sadness. “Let’s end up this family relationship. I don’t want you to be Rebecca’s uncle anymore. You already make my girl gone” she said. Then, Rebecca’s mommy went away from the evil home. She came to Rebecca’s grave and cried there. She thought that she wasn’t worth to live again because she made her daughter gone but when she cried, she hear Rebecca voice, “Mommy it’s not your fault, don’t be sad. I love you”. Rebecca’s mom just cried loud because she heard her lovely daughter’s voice. Because she already hear her daughter voice, she decided to back home.
There’s a little smile in her lips but deep in her heart she still felt breakdown. Even though she lived alone now, she could feel her daughter voice and breath. She felt her daughter always beside to accompany her wherever she went. She decided to be a good mommy for every one after she lost her lovely daughter. She became a lovely mommy for everyone because she didn’t want other girl ended up their life like her daughter do was. Everyone who lived around her supported her to be a good mommy. They also gave her a chance to give her love to their child too. Because they thought it would help Rebecca’s mommy to share her love to the kid, also it helped her to be a good mommy as long as she could when she lived.

Biography

God’s Way

Not everyone knew my uncle if they didn’t live in Jakarta. Niko Kilikily was a gangster before he decided to be pastor. He was born in Jakarta, December 2, 1972. He has 7 siblings which became gangster but some of his siblings married with gangster too. He always brought his samurai to fight with other gangster. He was a debt collector too. Everyone knew him because he looked like an angel of death. When he went to work, he could hit people if they look at him. He was also known as “Commander” who wore white t-shirt and brought samurai. He ever thought, he was strong enough because people like to call him “Commander”. Go in and out of prison was something usual for him. His dad always supported him to be a warrior except if he stole, consume drugs or rape, but if he killed someone dad would always defend him. When he was in Singkawang, he met a pastor that made him repent his actions but it was only for 6 months.
After 6 months, he went back in his old lifestyle. He consumed drugs, got drunk. One day, he consumed inex, one of the drug product from Netherland. However, he got overdose causing blood flowing out of his ears, mouth, and nose. He was rushed to the hospital. When he was on the way to hospital, he felt cold slowly from his feet to his neck. Suddenly he remember one song of Sunday school when he was in elementary school. “Jesus… Jesus… he is a good doctor. There is no one can be my doctor, my Jesus. When I feel down, he would heal me”, he sang. He asked a nurse to pray for him even though his doctor said they couldn’t do anything, but miracle happened. Jesus came to save him. Then, he decided to repent. Of course he fell into poverty and people left him.
In the late of 1998, he decided to give his life to Jesus meaning that he wanted Jesus using his life being a blessing for others. Because of his repent, Jesus gave a big gift for him and his family. He served the gangster in prison community. Now, he served three thousands inhabitants after devoting himself to God. Beside that, he became President Director of several mining companies. As a result, he used to support three thousands converted thugs. After that, he went to Israel to pray. When he returned to Indonesia, he got instructions from God that he should come back to his hometown, Tepa, Maluku. In there, he found nickel mine. In addition to manage he nickel mine, he also managed coal and gold mines exported to Japan, China, and America. He had two mine companies in Jakarta. There’s no impossible thing in our life if we bring our life to God. This repent brought his life to be better and being blessed to others who living around him.

Poem

Testimony

To learn about creative writing gives a big surprise for me that we can write down our crazy idea into writing forms.